First so sorry my blogging game has been suffering lately due to my crazy life.
I'm back now.
Anyhow this week has been decision making 101. I've basically just been making all kinds of choices. I'm pretty proud of myself so far.
But first Lemme Catch you up on me.
This Summer I was a barista and a "customer specialist" aka cashier. So everyday I felt like I couldn't breath getting up at 4 am an hour that I hate napping going to work at 3 getting to bed at 11 and starting over. Then I was a guest Intern at the beautiful Lost Canyon not once but twice. Both times I felt like I could breath, because I slowed down again. So I was lost and then found and lost again. I impulsively went to El Paso. I was never at my apartment and I learned what it meant to be completely exhausted. I made myself distant so I could think, so I could decide. And now I'm relearning what it means to be obedient and walk away from self created chaos in my life so that I can be a servant. I'm listening to God and I'm forgiving myself. I have to stop creating chaos so that I can hid from situations. Its basically what I do. I know good and well that I had two jobs so that I wouldn't have time to think about other things, that were and still are messed up. Not because I needed two jobs because my God provides and God let me for a little while until he called to me and said stop, when I was so weak that I couldn't resist.
So I'm no longer a barista because it was stressful and even though I liked everyone in the StarBOX. I was told to walk away, in sermon given by a lovely British lady, she said "leave the Starbucks drive thru life" I can only assume that she said because God wanted to catch my attention. Choice #1
So I'm back and I suppose I'm facing my fears. I'm leading YL still. I almost didn't because of me, because of my wants but God isn't done with me yet so I'm back on board and I won't fight who I am and try to be who I think I'm supposed to be I'm just going to do me and Follow Jesus. Even if its twice as scary this time. Choice #2
School isn't lining up perfectly but I believe God will line it up for me. Choice #3
So I decided. :)
