As last moments blend into first.

Sometimes you don't know before you do something its going to be the last time and so you don't bask in the moment. The past few months of my life has been full of lasts that I didn't know were going to be lasts. I'm a little sad that I didn't take them in but I'm also glad I didn't know about them at the same time. I'm glad things happened the way they did and those lasts came and went unnoticed until they were gone. As I reflect on them now. I wonder if I could have done things differently but what's done is done. The moments have gone and faded into the past.

I started this blog by saying 2010 was going to blow my mind. So far it has and I'm only halfway in. I did something I didn't think I had the heart to do... I left. It wasn't easy to look at faces I loved and tell them I was leaving but I did because I knew I had to, my lasts were swift I didn't even expect them to be lasts but I know I did what was right. I dated and fell for another place. I found out that if I show up with no expectations the Lord shows up to grab my heart and blow me away and now I'm interning for the summer at the greatest place on earth, Lost Canyon! So my firsts have begun everything is so new and fun in life right now.

A billion things to say

I have a billion things to say. I've done a lot of thinking and had some really dope conversations lately and I've totally reached a few conclusions.

1. I LOVE MY FRIENDS. Old friends, new friends, best friends, soon to be best friends I just love them. That should be a given but I think I may have forgotten just how much I love my friends. I love their shenanigans and the things we do that sorta don't make sense. I love our talks. I love everything about them, even the things that I sorta dislike about them... yeah I sorta dislike things about them but it makes them who they are so I love those things too. A friend tried to tell me that Love it logically but I fail to see that in my life. I think it love isn't something that you can define and put in box... in fact I think the logic that she applied to love just proves that it really is illogical.

2. Running in sandals is hard, bring your running shoes when people want to play abandonment.

4. I need a bike. A yellow beach cruiser.

5. I'm growing up, because I've learned that I can't do things just because I think people want me to. I have to want to do them too.

6. Lost Canyon is the greatest place on earth. Then its Disneyland.

7. I need to go to Disneyland... road trip?

8. This summer will be epicly awesome in so many ways.

9. I'm not dating any more... my mind is made up lol I'm kinda in a relationship now. (no I'm still not dating a person)

10. Hands down my favorite thing about Jesus is that he told it like it was and still is.

Matthew 7:15-23
15 "Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. 16 By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? 17 Likewise every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. 18 A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. 19 Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20 Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.

21"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22 Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' 23 Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!

There will be a more extensive blog based on this passage to come.

11. I'm a huge fan of office work... need an admin? I'm your girl.

12. One of my besties is awesome but only if he sends me packages in the mail. If not he'll be downgraded to great.

13. I love Lost Canyon... did I mention that?

14. Okae I lied it wasn't a million but it was more than one.